The inspiration behind this post today was this post shared by my mother this morning:
“Oh well, can’t walk, can’t stand, can’t get comfortable in bed. I’m suffering so bad with lower back pain, shoulder. And some I set up and on the end of the bed and cried like a baby. The Devil is a LIAR! In Jesus Name I pray.”
It was the first thing I seen in starting my day. Lord only knows how much I am praying for her health and well-being. One thing I have been suffering for years is our relationship. She’s not quite the easiest person to talk to. Yes, I know she is my mother and most mothers are “best friends” with their children and in me and my siblings cases we are not. And she makes us aware of how much we have stressed her out in her life. It makes it hard to come to her for motherly advice & support NOT FINANCIAL EITHER (having two children of my own) I get overwhelmed and at times don’t know what to do. I cry randomly just because of that disconnection. But I keep the faith that ONE DAY she will finally hear me. Whenever she would rant at me she would belittle me, she has even told my father to “prepare for my funeral” because she feels that I would die in a month. And prior to that I will never forget the day she told me AND DONT EXPECT ME TO SHOW UP AT YOUR FUNERAL EITHER! (This was right before Christmas) Every episode when she gets that way I have attempted to commit suicide ended up in mental hospitals and shut myself out from the world. I miss laughing with her calling her randomly just to tell her about a funny story about her grandkids and talk about dogs! We aboslutely loveee dogs! Things have changed and I knew deep down she was suffering and battling with SOMETHING. I just didn’t know what.
So Christmas Eve she called and I didn’t know until my son knocked on the bathroom door and said she wants to talk to me. My stomach immediately felt uneasy I almost wanted to stall a little more in the bathroom and not come out to talk to her. But then I heard my dads voice silently telling me she’s your mother life is too short you have to fix this. So I took a deep breath and grabbed the phone. Wow, I’m tearing up as I type this (ughhh this happens EVERY time I think of her) She broke down to me & she apologized to me and in that moment I cried with her because I actually felt the sincerity in her apology and I’m BIG on forgiving but I never forget. I don’t think my mom has ever experienced what I am experiencing now and I would love for her to just wake up one day and truly live!
I know my mother is definitely not big on reading. She would rather read whats on Facebook than here what I truly have to say from my heart. I don’t expect people to read my novels (it bother me that i cant help that I type stories.) My texts would be like 6 msgs depending on the type of phone you have lol but it just goes to show I have a lot to express! And I’m being bold enough to share what I been holding back for yeaaarrsssss! It feels good. I don’t care to be judged, lose friends or any of that stuff All I ever wanted was to be heard. That’s it! So if my mom should ever read this and that is a BIG IF I would love for her to gain the knowledge and INNERstanding that:
You can invite the devil into your life in a many of ways. How do you say you walk with God and give the devil more power? You give the devil more power when you:
~ complain about your current situation
~ use poor choices of words in your conversations (the words you use make a huge difference make sure you choose them wisely.
YOUR WORD IS PURE MAGIC & MISUSE OF YOUR WORD IS BLACK MAGIC.
~ focus on the negatives more than you are focusing on the positives
~ Do, feel, believe or say anything that goes against yourself.
~Are being ungrateful (counting your problems rather than counting your blessings)
Your attitude will determine how long you stay in the wilderness
*In order to give the devil the least amount of power it would be wise to start telling yourself as well as others that Everything is GOOD! HERE IS A POWERFUL STORY I MUST SHARE WITH YOU! NOW IF AFTER READING THIS DOESNT CHANGE YOUR PERCEPTION OR BETTER YET YOUR ATTITUDE ABOUT LIFE THEN IDK WHAT WILL!!!
CLICK HERE TO READ THIS BEAUTIFUL STORY! DONT SCROLL PAST IF YOUMADE IT THIS FAR CLICK LINK NOW YOU WONT REGRET IT! TRUST ME 🙂
So, how did you like that story? Did it really speak to you or what?! Now I have one more important link to check out! This story can give you an idea of what my SOUL MISSION IS! THIS STORY IS ABSOLUTE MOETIVATION FOR ME. CLICK HERE TO READ THE STORY ABOUT THE 100TH MONKEY.
You now have the awareness that there really is NO Source of sickness, None whatsoever! But there could be a resisting of the natural Well-Being and before you can effectively benefit from paying attention to your emotions, you must first ACCEPT that Well-Being is the ONLY Stream that flows. You can allow or disallow this Stream, but when you allow it, you are well; and when you disallow it, you are sick. In other words, there is only a Stream of wellness, which you are allowing or resisting, and you can tell by the way you feel which you are doing.
When a man loves his work–truly loves it–sickness and death will get tired of chasing you and just finally give up and leave you alone. Just do the right thing with the hands God gave you and you will live FREE OF SICKNESS! ” -The Simple Life of Noah Dearborn